Fortnightly Affair

I think I shall make it a fortnightly affair - updating my blog, that is. I am more into bloghopping nowadays, rather than penning down my own thoughts. Anyway, I have not been feeling too well lately so I couldn't really think logically and rationally with persistent headaches. So if you don’t understand the paragraphs that follow – just ignore them.

I haven’t been doing a lot of thinking, analyzing and reflecting lately. These are 2 things that I enjoy doing – asking the many “whys”. I know of some people who don’t see the need to reflect on what happened and what goes on in their lives or those who they love. But I do. I see reflecting on my daily life as a feedback mechanism to remind me of the improvements that need to be done. There will always be one thing that we can improve about ourselves. We are not perfect and even after improvements, we will never be but we may be better that we used to be.

My head feels stuffed these few days, at times, numb to any sensation. So it is mentally tiring to process information and analyse them in the best possible way such that the information makes sense to me and to the others who want to know. But unfortunately (maybe, it should be fortunately), I still have to do this, despite the “stuffed head”, as it is part of my core job scope. I actually just want to go home and sleep rather than be at my desk today.

It is times like this that I wish I have a “me” robot or a “me” clone who could take over my job while I sleep peacefully on my bed or laze on my couch watching Discovery-Travel. I can predict that today will not be a productive one since the head is still throbbing due to the lack of sleep. It was just too hot yesterday night and I couldn’t turn on the air-conditioner though it works perfectly. I shall not elaborate further on why I could not turn on a perfectly-working air-conditioner. That will take another page or two or even a day or two of ranting.

I wish there is a remedy for this headache. I tried pulling hair – feels good, really. I tried the tiger balm remedy – love the smell and the hot sensation. I tried the eucalyptus oil remedy – not bad, smells good too. Don’t ask me to take all the painkillers – I cannot bring myself to take pills. Despite all those remedies that I tried, they just serve as temporary relief. The doc said just bear with it – it will go away one day. And when is that one day, dear doc? One day, it will definitely go away. That was doc’s advice, which by the way, costs me many, many dollars – more than my daily or even weekly lunch money. After visiting the doc, I wished I had listened to my mom and be a doctor so I, too, can earn big money!

This hot, sticky, humid weather is definitely not helping. The office air-con is not helping either. It is supposed to be cool but I think it is far from cool. All this headaches and hot weather is putting me into a foul mood. Someone mentioned that I have become a grumpy, old grandmother. How can I not become one when the weather is like this and the head is like that? I need to go home. I want my bed. But….it is just too hot for me to walk back to the car park and drive home. I guess, I shall only wish for rain.

After note : Reading back, the entry has nothing to do with title - totally irrelevant.