I don't know why. It's just me. Eversince I started my no-pay leave to be at home, I have lost interest in blogging. I truly appreciate all fellow bloggers who took the time to visit my blog. I think I am getting too old for this blog. Or maybe I am simply not a good time organiser. Oh well, I am counting days to start work again.

Yes, you read it right. I am starting work again come February. I found myself when I am at home. But I realise being a homemaker without help is a difficult task. My evil self emerged when I am tired. The brunt of my anger was laid on my poor children. My weakness is lack of patience.

I pray for patience. I realise that being at home, trying to be a perfect mom and wife, makes me a worse person than when I am at work. I needed help. Alhamdullilah, I got help. My significant other, being the brilliant man he is (to me at least), saw how much I needed the help, even though I had initially adamantly refused. He turned me around. So for the last 1 month and the next 1/2 month, I am living the life of a true tai-tai. My main task is to handle the kids and pamper the hubby....the housework is no more my problemo. Isn't life wonderful?

And yet, I have no time to blog? I believe I should confess it...I had chosen not to blog. I do read your blogs, though. Some I leave tags...some I don't. But I do read. I love to read them because you all wrote so beautifully...so sincerely, so truthfully. I do want to really start blogging again but now is not the time.

As I count days before I start work, I want to spend whatever luxurious time I have now with my children. I want to mend myself. I want to be a patient mother. Why am I so patient with others but to my children.... I am an ogress?